What Monkeys say
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What Monkeys say |
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It's felt as if I've had to go through some sort of grieving process over the past six weeks since leaving the camp. The first two weeks were like being in denial - I just came home and got on with my life. But when looking at photos from the camp, I realised I was grieving - I wanted to be back there, sitting round the campfire, collecting hugs, or witnessing 3, 5, 7 hours in AllTing! I do feel we had an effect on the world. Not necessarily on specifics - all the positive energy raised goes into the 'positive energy pot' and helps rebalance the positive-negative energy imbalance... Earth healing, for me, is not just something one does one month or one week of the year - it's about living it every moment of your life. I loved AllTing, the sharing of joy, fears, pain, dreams and visions; taking my space, being a witness to others, the sense of community with the conflict, sharing and love it brings up; I have done groupwork before, but never in such a powerful way.
Part of the evolutionary process is to stick at it when things get tough, boring, murky - and to see how we can grow from that. I found that my bladder, my nicotine addiction, aching knees and sore bum all went on hold when I was in AllTing! |
It's impossible for me to say whether or not we had an effect on the world. Yet I feel it must have. It certainly profoundly affected me. The sense of shared purpose is the most powerful thing. I now feel a greater sense of connectedness, interpersonally, internationally. I think this came from: 1. the overall camp atmosphere; 2. the AllTing and meditation; 3. my own commitment. The meditations were important, deeply meaningful, even when I didn't 'get' anything in particular. I valued the feedback from others about theirs - though we need lessons in conciseness! This was a very significant factor in making the connections. I feel I've been around the world and really met so many.
The other especially meaningful bit was the farewell hugs. Words cannot express the value of mega-hug therapy - my heart is changed, opened, immensely. I've made a hundred friends and mean to keep in touch. And it's not a closed circle. Unless you can alter the fact that there are but 24 hours in a day, I doubt we could do much better than we did. |
